It's good to hear, how another white wife goes BBC-only. Her husband accepts that. In your new lifestile, have you met other white women who are blacked?
That's how it starts for a lot of women. Innocently dancing with a black man, then there's a slow dance, where he rubs his massive bulge up against them. They get turned on, and decide one time won't hurt anything. Then they get addicted to the feel of such a big cock.